luv thyself series - prompt #8

it's a rainy day today in marietta, ga & that makes me sad. if you read in my "enter helen's world!" tab (which you should because that page is SO FREAKING CUTE. IT'S LITERALLY A GAME), i dislike gloomy days 🌧 my mood is heavily affected by the weather, so it's a bit of a slow day for me. are you guys affected by weather too? let me know!

link to the prompts: https://selflovecircle.co.uk/self-love-journal-prompts/

prompt #8: what does my dream life look like?

oof what a question to ask someone who doesn't know what their life is going to look like right now. well, if the world were ideal, my dream life would be one in which i am doing what i love without ever worrying about being stable. it would be one that allows me to try anything i want without losing much in the process in starting over. when i was a kid, i dreamt of being a singer. some days i still do. singing was my first passion and one that i hoped to make a living out of. i envy the famous artists that go on stage to a crowd of people that adore them and pay to literally see them in person. they have people that love them so much they would pay a fortune and travel to go see them. crazy. they get to sing the songs they made. they get to travel the world. they make music all the time and have enough money to last them the rest of their lives.

those experiences are unmatched, and i sometimes want to pursue the dream of being a singer. i always dream of what i would say for acceptance speeches at awards shows. i think of the fun photoshoots and music video concepts. i think of how i'd answer questions in interviews for cosmopolitan or genius or esquire. i think about the amazing songs other talented artists and i could produce in a studio. it is definitely an amazing and beautiful dream. lately, it seems as if my life will most likely not go in that direction, but i always i wonder if it is something that will happen. even if i were not to be a famous artist though, i will always write and sing.

credits: @doitforicecream on instagram

now that i am 21, my dream life looks a little different, though the singer dream life will forever be in the back of my mind. now, my dream life would consist of a sleek and very fashionable apartment. floor to ceiling windows, looking over a beautiful city. i would never worry about money because my creative job is secure. my family would be safe, happy, and provided for. i would travel at least once a year to places i've never been. i would never be in one place. i would be on a beach in santorini one day reading and writing songs for someone, while taking in the sapphire water, and in the lively streets of seoul another day, taking pictures of the k-pop attractions and delicious food as an influencer. maybe i'd try out digital media. maybe i'd try out writing. maybe i'd try out producing. maybe i'd try out modeling. who knows? wouldn't that just be amazing?

i love the concept of being able to do whatever it is i want and not worry about how to pay the bills, and i'm sure most do. i'm sure everyone dreams of stability AND doing what they're passionate about. i want to make it happen, and though i am scared, i think it is possible. i don't know if it will be everything i dream of, but i will work for it to be as close as possible. as someone with so many interests and someone that craves independence and adventure, it is extremely difficult to imagine me occupying one job for the rest of my life. it is almost impossible to see myself living in one place, at least for the next 20 years. so, i hope that whatever step i take next, it's in the direction towards that dream. i hope you all are taking steps towards your dream, and if that dream is a little unclear right now, that's okay. you are definitely not alone. some people's paths are drawn clearly for them from a young age. others' are not so clear; some have multiple paths along the way, and some cannot see the lines at all. over time, we will all find where we fit into society and what we bring into the world, even if that journey is confusing and difficult. may your journey be beautiful and full of new experiences. good luck voizies 🤍✨ (wish me luck too cause ya girl needs it).